learning myself

since when? i stopped feeling
since when? i've learnt to deal with my emotions
since when? i started to treat things in a different approach
since when? i think differently
since when? blows aren't blows to me anymore
since when? things doesn't affect me much anymore
since when? i'm not scared of people leaving
since when? i've learnt not to depend n rely so much
since when? i only trust god n only god...

cuz god would never let me down.. god was n always will be there, no matter what...
He thought me how to learn from my mistakes, and i should learn to love myself before i can love others, that is how i grew. looking back, how i made lives of my loved ones so difficult, i am glad to say i'm a much better person now..
life is so short, god spread his love to me, n i would spread it to d ones i care. each n eveyone that matters to me..that is worth loving.. whom had been thru ups n downs with me n still around.. especially those who cried with me when life seemed to be so hard, who asked me not to look back (which i happen to love to do so), who are happy for me when i walked thru d storm.

BUT only if you asked me to

i'd come for you,
but only if u asked me to...
no one but you,
no matter wat remember,
you know i'll always come for you.

HELP!!!

not emo enuf to function...
how le?

p. 142

dis is an interesting one...
"You will never disserve your relationship-nor anyone-by seeing more in another than they are showing you. For there is more there. Much more. It is only their fear that stops them from showing you."

Conversations with God

JUNE 22

God says,"I tell you, you can speak to Me as you would speak with your best friend."

Conversations with God

JUNE 15

# It is not a question of learning, but remembering. #
p. 43

when it rains, it pours..

it hurts, with every breathing moment. i feel the pain. so deep, it aches. dis time, i didn't cry. just wondering did i make it tht easy for u to come in n out of my life?
guess d biggest part of loving someone, is to learn to let go. somethings are beyond our control. like a bird or a fish... they belong to d sky n sea. even thou i like it so much, d tighter i try to grip and grab hold of it, eventually i'll suffocate it or it'll slip right thru my hands.. y not set it free, to see it soar freely or swim freely, it'll be happier.
that is wat i need to do now, set u free, cuz i know where u belong. shouldn't let myself rely on u so much in the first place, had turned into a burden for u..
dis time, i'll be 4 steps behind... making things right n stopping all these craps for u.. like i said b4, whatever it takes..
dun have to worry anymore, u're safe now...